This is fantastic. I haven’t fallen in love in years. I thought that maybe I had lost my touch. That I had spent all my ‘fall in love free’ chips at the lottery of love already. That there was a limited amount of falling in love I could do before the batteries wore out.
It’s been a long time since I had a crush. Sure, I have crushes all the time, but I mean one that I’ve actually acted on. I thought that maybe I had found every attractive person in Oakland already. That I had worn out my desires. That my loving days had came and went.
Oh, I was wrong.
I’m going to do this. Even though it scares the shit out of me. I’m just going to see where this takes me. Because I’ve been here before, but the vast far away seems so enticing. I have never been there before. I would like to see what kind of strange creatures live out there. In this new land of falling in love with someone new.
Or is this a mirage, and will I be here forever, in the land of breaking up.